Sorrow

I’m lost in the emptiness of my sorrow,
   I feel nothing but the pain.

I’ve been broken down into nothing,
       I’ve got nothing to keep on going for.

My soul is suffocating;
Crying and screaming behind my tightly locked lips.
{I wont let her speak}

She bleeds black ink onto bright white pages,
Begging for someone to see behind the excuse.
           {No one ever does}

I’m hurting,
Yet if you ask me how I am,
I promise to lie.
    {I’m fine}

I’m learning how to deal with this suffering,
I’m fine with being e m p t y ,
I’m okay with dying.
{As long as it’s all over soon}

There’s nothing around me,
It’s the a b s e n c e of everything.

I’m a l o n e.
There’s n o t h i n g left of me.

Your words mean nothing to me,
I’ve lost my will to care.
{After all, it has only brought me pain}

Leave me,
Let me drown in my s o r r o w.
{Maybe then I might get some peace}

I don’t wanna try anymore,
The pain is too intense,
And breathing is just too hard.
{Inhale; Exhale; Inhale; Exhale; Inhale; Exhale;}

I’m going to close my eyes,
Count to t e n,
And maybe then,

Once all the different pills kick in,
I might just be able to get a w a y,

I amight even get to die today.

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2 thoughts on “Sorrow

  1. The first people to scale up the highest mountains leave anchors for others to follow. It makes it that little bit easier for those following the same path. Their struggle and suffering is not totally in vain, or just about themselves, even in its darkest of expression, life manages to give.
    Your words give understanding and insight into the void of depression, thank you for your strength, courage and determination, for giving your time and your energy to create poetry, to still have the gall to give, even when depression wants to take take take, it hasn’t taken the best of you, my friend, you give me hope and inspiration as well as the encouragement not to give up on when the depressed push me away.

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