I try to breathe, but I’m barely breathing,
I can’t think clearly; i can barely speak.
My mind is filled with needless thoughts.
My cheeks are red and feverish…
I know what i must do,
But i can’t bring myself to do it.
Instead i jump into a thousand distractions…
Mindlessly seeking the thrill of the ‘anything’,
I cringe at the progress of time on the clock.
And with lips gone dry from an internal hell-fire
I continue to evade what I cannot face.